1 Month, Really?

This week, Spencer turned 4 weeks old! 1 month, really? I feel like I was just leaving Northside! I must admit, this has been an eye opening month for Bill and I and we have learned a lot about ourselves. Adjusting to life with a newborn has been so many things; challenging, exhausting, but most of all rewarding. In the past, I have been told by other moms that being a mom is one of the hardest jobs there is and I realize this more then ever now. For anyone who has never tried it, I promise you this is a true statement (and I would just like to add the disclaimer that Spencer is an very good baby and it's still the hardest thing I have ever done). Everyone is different and handles parenthood differently so these are of course my personal feelings. Who knows, maybe you might feel the same.

As I mom I am learning that you are always "on." I Have not quite found that off button yet :-) How do I best describe that? You become a well oiled machine whose tasks are changing diapers, feeding bottles, doing laundry, cleaning house, changing diapers (LOL), giving baths, going grocery shopping, doing laundry (LOL) and the list goes on. Point is, you just keep going. I like to think of it as a continuation of nesting. "Nesting on Steriods". For me, it seems that everything that I once had time for has taken a back seat and for now, I am honestly okay with that. Now I know this is life with a newborn and as time goes on, I can introduce all the things I love so much. Things like, mani/pedi's, going to the gym or a long run, phone dates with my friends all over the country, cuddling with my husband, or even a hot shower that is longer then 10 minutes to name just a few :-)

Most of all, the past moth has taught me, that no matter how tired you are, how frustrated you may feel, the feeling that your baby needs you trumps all. I think that is what keep me going right now and why I see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Believe me, I am not complaining. Like I said, I am just adjusting. I am learning how to manage my new life. I am a planner as many of you know and life with Spencer proves to be very unpredictable. A simple task such as leaving the house is a production and being on-time seems to be a thing of the past :-) Despite the many changes and adjustments in our lives, Bill and I are so in love with our little boy and are enjoying every minute even if that means always being "on". He is more then worth it :-)

Here are some more pics of the little guy!